I say to you, on must have chaos in oneself in order to give birth to a dancing star. – Friedrich Nietsche
A well-known quote by a well-known writer. Whatever you may think of Nietsche, his life is the perfect illustration of his quote.
And who among us doesn’t feel that we have chaos within ourselves? Perhaps there is someone somewhere who can’t identify with that sense. I certainly do. I remember when I found this quote the first time. I had been in therapy for a while, digging deep into my own internal chaos. The combination of depression, anxiety, repression, and codependency felt bottomless at the time – though, of course, it wasn’t. I thought that I was broken. I wasn’t. I was discovering my own humanity.
This quote gave me the hope that someday I would birth that dancing star. And looking back, it seems that I have… or am… or will. Which reminds me of the notion that time is what keeps things from happening all at once. Wait, what?!
Where was I? Oh yeah.
Do you want to be famous? I have. Or I do. Hard to say, but fame has always been part of my fantasy world. Because if you’re famous, then you must matter, right? Yeah, I know, that doesn’t follow. But to Younger Julia it does, and she wants to matter more than anything. So the quote also hooks me that way. “I have Chaos in me! I’m a-gonna be a Dancin’ STAR!” (said with my best fake-Texan accent.)
Truth be told, we all have within us the potential to be that Dancing Star. Some people will never meet that potential, whether through fear, degrading life circumstance, or other inhibiting factors. Perhaps that Dancing Star is simply the Spark of the Divine within.
What do you think? Do we all have that potential? Do you want to be famous, a well-known Dancing Star? Does this quote appeal to you, or make you shudder? Let me know in the comments!
(Picture of datura bud from here.)